Goodbyes
I can't get my head around this whole goodbye thing. My brain is clearly not properly constructed for it. Months ago, when I should have been focusing on other things, like making my paintings more thoughtful and jargonistic and whatnot, or being a less horrible person with Grandma, I was all EEEEEEEE! I'm going to Vancouver! Now that I am really almost going to Vancouver, and should be thinking about packing and applying for jobs and whatnot, I am all EEEEEK! I need to spend more time with all the people I love who I am not going to see for MONTHS OR POSSIBLY YEARS(Yes, I'm talkin' boutCHOO, bento, rangertjane, & missmachismo!) and what if I hate it there and can't get a job and things don't work outaaaaaaaghh!Which is all a bit disconcerting for weatherwise. He said that HE is supposed to be the one getting cold feet.
posted by annika fox @ 8:35 p.m.
2 Comments:
I know exactly how you feel -- I should be uber-excited for going to Japan, but all I can think about is who I'm going away from.
If only we were those kind of people who could do things with "no regrets". That's still just a pretty phrase to me.
Yes, and now I'm reliving all that again because I just got offered a job that I think maybe I probably want but what if I do not? OHNO
Oh wait...IS that like the previous experience? Maybe not.
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